i made a friend two years ago, full of ambition, goals, dreams. had morals which seemingly couldn't be shaken, not even by peers nor media. an extraodinaire. but within six months, that friend was lost. the person that is left, has a wavering target and a flickering mind, easily influenced by everything around. what was once a strong firm unmovable foundation is now a push over, easily succommed by the waves of whatever. even a soft whisper could be deemed as a strong influence.

i was wowed by the friend i made 2 years ago. had total admiration. even dreamed of how life would be like in the future with both of us as really close friends. then things change, so did that friend. i still held on, not wanting to believe in the change. it was not possible that some one i deeply admire could change into someone so... different, and ordinary.

truth to be told, that friend i made two years ago has long passed away. my trust was broken, my dreams were a lie, and my hope for a come back had faded.

after months of toiling with myself, and my thoughts, i've lost. i've lost the battle in beliving that that friend will return, and most of all, i've lost a friend. an acknoledgement one and a half years too late.